she dreamed the same dream night after night~We are an orchestra of one, we are a majesty unveiling, we are newly born lovers, christening one another with mouths and hands and seeking tongues. We are everything and nothing~ Night is falling. night is falling. and I am drowning. in your arms. I am safe again. I am safe again. You surface me, and cling to me, night is falling and I am in my place again. above you, beneath you, wherever it pleases you so... oh my love, I am home again. My heart has been reborn again. the night is falling. and so am I . Falling for you ( into you, above you, through you). night is falling. night is falling. and so am i. so am i. always for you. for you.

blustarswendy3

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2002-10-01 - 11:33 a.m.

my life is on repeat.

i keep cycling

into the same patterns

of self defeating surrender.

I am always giving up.

well, here I am again.

this is me, giving up.

waving the white flag.

there is no peace.

there is no solution.

even my thoughts

are stuck in a cyclical holding pattern.

a year ago. I was here.

and now a whole annual later I am

right back where I started.

how did I end up, in this dark lonely place.

where I have nothing left to say.

I am angry. and disillusioned.

but I am also much, much too tired to keep fighting.

You have made it so abundantly clear with your actions.

it is your words that leave me so utterly confused.

"you don't care. you don't care. you don't care"

is the endless piercing thread of my neurotic thought tapestry

the prick of your thorny silence says everything.

~newsflash~

no more whispering through the long night, no more breathy sighs.

no more misunderstandings no more lingering goodbyes

you spare me from your truths.

because you think that they will destroy me

but, you know what? they already have, without you ever even opening your mouth.

I used to always wonder. how is it gonna end?

but, it already has. it already has.

that was it. I guess that was the best you could do. (such a shame, cause I know that I could have written us a MUCH better ending, if only you had ever let me be the narrator)

alas, everything ends.

even these words.

end

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