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2003-12-05 - 2:39 p.m.
In a few days, I am scheduled to have my sonogram. If the baby is positioned correctly and cooperates, I should be able to find out the sex. Long before this unexpected baby was ever a reality, I always dreamed of having a little girl. But now, I just want THIS baby, the tiny life inside me, that let me hear it's rapidly thudding little heartbeat in the Dr's office. There is something so magical in all it's wonder. whatever it is.
I want so many things for this baby. I want them to be their own person. I want them to be passionate and creative and bold enough to always chase there dreams. I do not want this baby to feel the responsibility of having to complete me. They already have. This baby is such a gift.
My old life is a distant memory. My new life is one I can barely picture.
I try to imagine this baby's face. I see dark wavy hair, and cappucino chilean eyes. I see tiny fists waving in the air and pink, pink cheeks.
I see so much beauty, that I have been given, in the instant of a split second of unguarded fate.
In spite of all the walls that I have spent my entire life building, this tiny little baby, snuck past every single roadblock and gate.
This baby already has secrets that it keeps from me. and I am eagerly anticipating unraveling and untangling them all.
there is no love like this.
and even though I have no mate to share this Magicalness with, I share this baby with you. ~
old starlight - new starbright
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