prayerful of dreams - 2008-06-28
preschool princess - 2008-06-16
life with my sweetheart - 2008-04-29
the fast approach of four - 2008-04-12
lighting up my own life - 2008-03-08
2002-09-20 - 2:07 p.m.
Today my epiphany was born, amidst the marble walkways of a common U.S. mall. where I made random judgements upon people, vignettes of voyeuristic moments layered one atop another as I strolled along, solitary, sans the usual consumeristic weight of copious shopping bags. Today, was the first time in my entire life that I did not feel the almost desperate compulsion to shop. In the past, handbags and clothes and jewelry were my one night stands, my secret shame, littering the inside of my closets, like tattered little slips of papers with the names of passing straners on them.
and in strolling the mall, and NOT feeling the need to buy, I felt a sense of inner peace overcome me. Nothing could challenge the fiscal celibacy of my descion. I was operating under a higher power, because for the past 8 weeks, I have shopped endlessly for my new house. Now the time is here. The closing on the house,with little half moons, carved into the shutters, is today!! Furniture is being delivered at this very moment! and yet, nothing is perfect, I do not have any chairs to go with the stunning british Colonial Cherry Mahogany dining room table,that I just bought, but I do have the things I have gathered, from every corner of the globe for the last 10 years. The prerequisite to a hope chest, that lost hope and became the bitter chest, waiting and waiting to be opened. Well, that time has come. I had to carve out my own destiny, knowing full well that no man was ever going to arrive on white horseback and request my spinstered hand in wedded bliss. I had to saddle up and ride myself into the sunset. Today, maybe just maybe, I can make my own happy ending.
and she lived. happily. ever. after. in her little blue trimmed house. the one with a koi pond
dare I hope?
( pictures of the moving in weekend, will be forthcoming!)
P.S. In keeping with my spinsteriness, I have 2 brand new kittens, Moonlight and Sasha ( star). they are sooo beautiful ~ and everyhing is as it should be. for once. :)
old starlight - new starbright
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